“I like reading blogs about fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue and Narcissistic Personality Disorder,” I told my good friend.
He laughed. He thought I was joking.
Realizing I was serious, my friend and I started a conversation, which was as healthy as the awesome brunch he had prepared for us.
My friend is a wonderful cook. He likes to show off his talents in the kitchen. I’m always happy when I’m on the receiving end of his pancakes made from scratch or the egg dish he makes when I’m feeling particularly down.
Having a real friend is one blessing in my life that helped me rise above the darkness I found myself in after falling prey to a narcissist’s deviant intentions, lies and games.
My friend has never read a blog, but he sure bought me this little computer I’m writing in mine with.
There weren’t any hidden agendas in the gift. No power-tripping. Nothing other than wanting to do something for a friend out of love. Unconditional love is a wonderful gift.
The relationship I had, with a man who by all means behaved like a text-book narcissist, was toxic to my mind, body and spirit. He had also given me gifts. Alas. Each one came with a price. I would later learn that everything the man had done or offered, in the name of love and kindness, was all a part of his dark and destructive intentions.
Ending a relationship with a man who suddenly changed, and so drastically that he became unrecognizable, was a shocking and painful experience. I did end it though, and from that day forward, I am healing.
I’m making new memories. My spirit is renewed in new acquaintances, but even more by remembering the good friends I have. Authentic interactions with people is healing my heart and helping me to sort through the confusion that was left.
I can feel a return to myself.
I started writing again. I’m enjoying simple things like sitting by a fire. My mental and emotional health is better, but it took a pretty long time for the pain to settle down. Healing after abuse takes time.
Practicing gratitude has helped me heal. Every little thing helps when you’re assembling pieces of your self. Being grateful is said to be a state of mind, and I believe it.
A healthy life after a toxic relationship is possible.
Aside from practicing gratitude, saying No was crucial for me to get out and stay out. I had to say NO many times, at first to the man with harmful intentions and finally, to myself each time I doubted the truth.
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