My little drop of heaven

She sees everything, hears everything, and feels everything.  I can’t hide anything from her.  She feels what I feel.  I often wish she didn’t.  I don’t always want her to feel what I feel, but I can’t hide from her.

Her sensitive nature is part of what makes her so incredibly adorable and lovable.  Its part of what brings joy to children and any person whose heart has a place where tenderness can be felt.

She doesn’t ignore the moment.  She pays close attention.   She’s intensely affected by her environment.

I wouldn’t change a thing about her.  I love her just the way she is and I love the way she is.

I’ve tried to change in me the same traits I love so much about her.  Maybe, if I pay attention, she will teach me that being sensitive and showing feelings is an okay way to be.  In her, it’s a beautiful way to be.  She’s honest and refreshingly expressive.  Maybe, if I listen, she will teach me to embrace what is so.

Today she came to me when I called for her.  I’ve known her and loved her almost five years and she finally walked straight to me without turning around half way to rethink things.

She walked towards me with more confidence and without fear.  I saw a trust in her eyes that felt new.  I can’t believe she is still learning to trust, but she is.

Her trust is a gift.  I felt it when she gave it.

She doesn’t owe trust to any person.  I don’t know what happened to my girl in her seven months of living before I met her.  I don’t want to know.

I understand her cautiousness, even though I don’t know the details of her early life.  I understand her and she understands me.  Neither of us knows what happened to each other before we met.  We just know things happened.

She and I are a lot alike.

She took me outside twice today.   She took me where the early morning sun warmed my face.  A cool crisp air reminded me of the changing season.

She has a lot to teach me, if I listen.

She’s my little drop of heaven who walks on four legs.

she takes me into the morning light



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11 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Anonymous on January 1, 2011 at 6:53 PM

    it is absolutely true that doggies bring such joy and forgiveness, thank you for this meaningful post, the little drop of heaven! so looking forward to your posts this year!

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  2. I am in a bad mood today. Crying a lot because of my Mom’s recent death. I still can’t believe. Several times today, for just a “second” I went to pick up the phone to call her. It’s devastating to know she’s not there to answer. This post made me weep….a good cry though. It reminded how much our pets mean to us. But more importantly, how much we mean to them. I once had a dog that was very timid and afraid of everything. I felt totally responsible for making her feel safe. Sounds like what you have.

    mo

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    • Dear Mo,

      I am so sorry. I have not kept up and didn’t know. Now I wish I could give you a hug.

      I am so sorry for your loss. I hope someone is there to give you some comfort. I don’t know what to say. I can truly only imagine the strength it must take to endure this time of loss, our mothers, like no other love there is.

      I will hold you in my thoughts and prayers. I pray that each day brings a little more peace and comfort to your heart.

      I know crying is usually helpful to me when I’m sad. It’s a release, I guess. You are right, we do mean a lot to our pets. And mine needs me, which sometimes is what keeps me going. If it takes a dog to keep me going, then so be it you know.

      Please take good care of yourself okay.

      With sympathy,
      dogkisses.

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  3. Posted by Anonymous on October 16, 2010 at 3:27 PM

    She is so beautiful! Like everyone else, reading your essays warms the soul.

    Thank you for persisting in your writing. It must be hard some days for you to do that (writing is always hard!) but you have a beautiful way of expressing yourself!

    Big hugs,
    CZ

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    • Thanks CZ!

      Encouragement certainly gives me a boost because you’re right, writing is hard. Still, we write don’t we? Thanks for reading.

      hugs from dogkisses

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  4. Beautiful Dog!
    I also enjoy your writing! 🙂
    All the Best,
    Peace,
    laz

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  5. I envy you. We are in such a state of flux — limbo, actually — that I have chosen not to bring a pet into this mix. My husband would dearly love to have a dog. I am not sure what kind, but I know it will be big. I would so like to have a cat — or two — again. But it would not be practical at this point. We will be putting the house on the market sometime after Christmas and if it sells quickly my son and I will be moving to an apartment till next September.

    So those are the reasons. But, oh how I would love to have what you have Miss Dogkisses. That snuggle, just because. That constant, happy smile. That little drop of heaven who walks on four legs. Petting them makes the world stand still and all of your troubles wash away for just those precious moments.

    Thanks for the reminder.

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    • Hi CJ,
      I know you’ll be happy when the time comes that you can have pets again. Remember the potato chip commercial that said you can’t only eat one, (they probably still have it but I don’t watch enough TV), well, that’s how it is with my girl. She’s so soft whenever I pet her, I know I need a moment or more because NO WAY can anyone only pet her only once. We all have to keep on because of her silky fur. It’s amazing how it feels. I wish I could lend her to you for a day. She is good medicine!

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  6. Look at that sweetie! It’s been bad lately…….just a lot of pain and depression. Hope you’re feeling better! What a beautiful baby!

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    • Hey Rose!
      So nice to see a comment from you, and yes, she is so pretty.
      I’m sorry you aren’t feeling well. Me either. I understand. I sure hope you feel better soon.
      Also sorry to hear you are depressed. It sure seems to come right along with pain doesn’t it.
      Many well wishes to you…

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