I would like to express my deepest gratitude for each prayer spoken, good thought and healing wishes for my son and I, along with the great amount of support many people have offered since my earlier post.
The days have been long and demanded my attention or I would have posted an earlier update.
My son is continuing to receive inpatient medical care. His symptoms have lessened to some degree. I am grateful for this, even though I understand that he’d rather not be in a hospital. I wish he didn’t have to be in one, however, I must have hope that his medical team will offer new choices and opportunities for his recovery in the community.
I’ve strayed from writing much about my son or his illness in my blog, mostly because I began to feel that I was crossing an invisible line of loyalty. I don’t want to infringe upon his privacy nor betray his trust and the latter feels rather compromised.
I would most likely feel easier about sharing my concerns or feelings and his progress if his diagnosis was a more accepted, less stigmatized and certainly, a better understood illness or condition.
One thing I want to share is that after I asked for prayers, there has been an experience of Grace, even if fleeting or intermittent.
Grace is the moments when peace has flooded my heart and the nights when sleep came after my mind had gone round and round, thinking of all that is out of my control.
Grace is also the moments I’ve had with my son when I had more to offer than anxiety, worry or sadness.
My son and I used to meditate together when he was a child. He knows what I speak of when I talk about an inner peace. He used to call our meditations going to his happy place.
He didn’t feel like doing a meditation together during a recent visit when I suggested it, but he called me afterwards to tell me he’d like to try the next time he sees me.
I believe the moments of Grace came from your prayers and healing wishes, along with a willingness I have also felt, to be open and receive them.
Again, I am most grateful for your generous support.
“Keep quiet, undisturbed, and the wisdom and the power will come on their own….. Abandon all desires, keep your mind silent and you shall discover….. Desirelessness is the highest bliss.”
~I Am That Nisargadatta Maharaj
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