In Loving Memory of Ruthie Mae
I knew every day for almost ten years that I was lucky to have Ruthie Mae as my friend, and to be loved dearly and tenderly by the sweetest dog in the world. We were the very best of friends.
Ruthie Mae passed on the first day of Spring 2015.
I’m Ruthie! A Beautiful Dog! I’m Nine Years Old!
Farewell my beautiful friend! I shall forever be the incredibly lucky person who was loved by you!
Ruthie’s Human Mom,
Michelle.
Post Script:
Ruthie had a type of vascular cancer that commonly doesn’t present symptoms until the disease has progressed. She became severely weak and shortly afterward, at the veterinary hospital, she passed peacefully.
Thank you for visiting this blog, dogkisses, named after Ms. Ruthie Mae.
DOGKISSES 
Posted by Sue Dreamwalker on September 17, 2018 at 3:52 AM
Just dropping by again Michelle, to see how you are doing? Sending thoughts your way and hope all’s well.. ❤
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Posted by dogkisses on September 20, 2018 at 8:40 PM
Thanks. I’m fair. I have many health things going on. I will see my doctor soon. So much is changing. I can feel it. I just want my life back. I want a dog. I want home. The days are long and mostly, difficult but I still have hope. Thank you for your thoughts. Sending love your way with hugs.
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Posted by Sue Dreamwalker on September 22, 2018 at 5:38 AM
I am sure dear Michelle when the time is right all will come together.. The Butterfly on your door handle you spoke of to me.. A sign, that you made the right choice for now.. TRUST and keep envisioning a place of perfect peace and safety to fit your needs,,Keep that vision as if you already have that home, and a new companion dog, and that you are well and whole.. SEE that inside of yourself daily.. And give thanks for it daily… When we do that its surprising just how we then manifest our desires..
When we keep saying we want… We keep living in want… So try as hard as it can be to turn your mind around on it all… And see how quickly then things begin to manifest…
LOVE to you and you remain in my thoughts and prayers.. ❤ 🙏💖
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Posted by dogkisses on September 22, 2018 at 3:42 PM
Thanks, Sue. I know you are right. I will start working on that.
“I have a peaceful home that I love. I am grateful. I have a great dog. I even have a place for some flowers and a few veggies!”
Love,
Michelle.
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Posted by Sue Dreamwalker on September 23, 2018 at 11:23 AM
That’s the way… 🙂 Sending HUGE HUGS.. ❤
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Posted by dogkisses on October 30, 2018 at 12:55 AM
Thanks, Sue. Your huge hugs are still coming through the wire across the ocean. Hugs and Love, Michelle.
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Posted by revengestar on June 23, 2016 at 1:54 PM
ANGELS!
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Posted by dogkisses on September 22, 2018 at 3:44 PM
Indeed!
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Posted by Sue Dreamwalker on April 27, 2015 at 9:53 AM
Dear Michelle, you know you have my heartfelt sympathies dear Michelle, Ruthie will I know leave a huge hole in your heart for a while to come.. For she was not only your friend, companion, but she was also a healer and guide, ..
I am sorry I was late in getting here, but you know my love is with you and I sense that you also sense a change coming, Ruthie’s work I am sure she is still doing, all be it from across the Rainbow Bridge..
Sending such a lot of love over to you Michelle.. I pray soon your heart heal … Love and Blessings Sue xxx ❤
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Posted by dogkisses on April 27, 2015 at 1:32 PM
Thank you dear Sue. I truly appreciate and am comforted by your words, for I know they are true. You know, she was my medical companion animal, but I have realized now that it was not just a dog that was my medicine, but it was her. She was so special and you are so right on about her being my healer and guide.
I can’t understand why God took her from me when he did. I needed Ruthie. I’m terribly sad and some days don’t feel like I can keep on, but I must find a way.
Moving is the most important thing, I think. The place I live makes me so sad. There are many negative people. My son lives here, and his building has all the good people. I’m glad for him.
I’m praying a lot today. I wish God would help me because I really need it.
Thank you so much for being my friend. Your comment came in at such a needed time for me.
Sending you love and well wishes,
Your friend, Michelle.
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Posted by Sue Dreamwalker on April 28, 2015 at 9:16 AM
You know sometimes, God does work in the most mysterious of ways Michelle.. And while I know your heart breaks over the loss of dear Ruthie.. I also know that it is now a time of change… You need to show Ruthie that you are not going to curl up in a corner… But because of her strength you are going to be able to change your life around.. You have done it before. And I know you can do so again Michelle..
I wish you had your Alchemist friend with you.. Do you still have contact? for I am sure he would be uplifting and encouraging your spirit right now.. Have you read the book The Journey.. By Brandon Bays?.. while its story is about her self curing of cancer.. she also uncovers in the process many emotional layers which contributed to her illness.. If you can get a chance to borrow it from a library .. its well worth the read and there are some exercises in there which may help you gain more positivity and strength.. Love and special Hugs.. Sue xxx ❤
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Posted by dogkisses on April 28, 2015 at 9:40 AM
Dear Sue,
Thank you. Your friendship helps. I did see the Alchemist once, who brought me back to life, as I was literally, very much like Ruthie was the day she parted. I need to go back soon. I’ll keep that in mind.
I will try to remember the book. The library is just around the corner.
Yes, Ruthie would not want me to curl up, which is what I have done, for the most part. My friend, another blogger (HibernationNow on WP), Laurie, also died. Both deaths have hit me hard. Then, I found a dog who lived with me for one week. I loved her too, but she had special needs that I was unable to care for. I had to re-home her, but I miss her too. I feel like a walking ball of grief.
I have Ruthie’s photo always near me and sometimes, I do feel her spirit close. My body is weaker than it ever has been, and the medication I’ve been taking for a long time is starting to make me sick.
My son and I are going to a Catholic retreat center for two days very soon. His Pastor gave this as a gift yesterday. There is a Monk there who cooks the meals and I will also have time for spiritual counseling.
I’ll try to find the book you suggested to take with me to the retreat center. Thank you for the suggestion. I hope also to stay in better touch with you, okay. Please know I am grateful for you and your friendship.
With Gratitude and Love,
Your friend, Michelle.
Hugs from me, and in Loving Memory of Ruthie Mae, doggie kisses for the animals in your life.
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Posted by Editor (Retired) on April 22, 2015 at 12:54 AM
Michelle, your blog is a wonderful tribute to a wonderful dog, Ruthie Mae.
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Posted by dogkisses on April 22, 2015 at 5:36 PM
Thank you John. She was a wonderful dog. That is for sure.
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Posted by Paul Handover on April 15, 2015 at 9:46 AM
Should have come hear sooner than this, don’t know how I missed it. All of which doesn’t reduce by one jot the sadness at reading about your loss. Nine years old was too young. Then any age would have been too young. So sorry, Paul.
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Posted by dogkisses on April 15, 2015 at 12:29 PM
Hi Paul, It is okay. Your comment comes at the right time, as my heart is still wounded from the sudden loss of Ruthie. You are right too. Nine years is too young, but the type of cancer she had takes dogs very quickly and doesn’t seem to be a disease of old age.
I think Ruthie and I were lucky that she was taken to the hospital before the process went further. Maybe Ruthie ate something during that camping trip two years ago, but the vet said the process had been going on for a while. And, no amount of money in the end would have mattered. I think too that when Ruthie lost her dog friend, Tiny, it left her broken hearted. She was her happiest only with another dog, honestly. She LOVED dogs! She loved me as well, a lot, and I’m just lost without her.
I received an email from Sue, and maybe one from you too. Am going to check the messages now.
Thanks for stopping by to leave me your warm thoughts.
Michelle, in Memory of Ruthie Mae.
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Posted by Loberatwonderland on April 14, 2015 at 1:36 PM
Just read this… so sorry. I can not imagine your pain. I can not say anything that help you in your grieve. But i can be here reading about this amazing furry fellow with who you shared your life and think in how wonderful life is just cause we can find such beuty hearts in our way. Lots of hugs from spain.
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Posted by dogkisses on April 14, 2015 at 9:24 PM
Thank you for the kind words and hugs from Spain too! I think my love for Ruthie and her sweet tender spirit travels through this post and so, when your hugs came from Spain, I felt again how strong that love is in me. I know it will always be there in my heart and memories.
Warmly,
Michelle, in Memory of Ruthie.
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Posted by Cathy on April 9, 2015 at 11:49 AM
So very sorry for your loss. Our fur babies leave a big gap in our hearts and lives when they leave and it never gets easier 💔
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Posted by dogkisses on April 9, 2015 at 5:52 PM
Thank you Cathy. I appreciate your sympathy and understanding. There is surely a gap, in my heart and life.
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Posted by deliberatelydebbie on April 8, 2015 at 9:24 PM
Where would we be without the unconditional love we receive from our furry-family members??
Please accept my sincerest condolences, and may you find strength through the dark hours by reliving each special moment you shared with sweet Ruthie Mae…her spirit is free from all pain now xx
Thanks for sharing her life with us 🙂
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Posted by dogkisses on April 9, 2015 at 8:00 AM
Hi DD, Thanks for your comment.
I am actually quite lost without my furry friend, but I continue to take solace in the fact that she isn’t suffering and like you say, she is free. I never wanted her to have to suffer, so in that regard, I am grateful. I am also truly grateful to have known her, loved her and have been loved so wonderfully!
Ruthie’s Forever,
Michelle.
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Posted by czbz on April 3, 2015 at 7:44 PM
So sorry to read this today! Your sweet Ruthie had such soulful eyes which you managed to capture in her photos and share with everyone. Farewell to your beautiful friend who will be missed by all of us! xoxoxo
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Posted by dogkisses on April 4, 2015 at 10:03 AM
Thank you, CZ.
I appreciate your sympathy, and all the loving thoughts for the loss of my beautiful dog. She did have the most wonderful eyes and her soul, well, she was made of pure love and sweetness. She’s off with her doggie friends, I suppose, running alongside them in the green, green grasses.
Hugs and Love, your friend, Michelle.
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Posted by Muddletation on April 3, 2015 at 7:16 AM
So sorry for your loss, I hope you will think of the good memories during this difficult time. Sending healing thoughts your way
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Posted by dogkisses on April 3, 2015 at 10:25 AM
Thank you. I guess Ruthie left a warm nice place in my heart, and although there’s a hole in it, I do have so many memories. Most of them include her sweet face.
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Posted by Bemused on March 31, 2015 at 11:18 PM
I’m so sorry 😦 It never gets easier and it always seems too short .
I suspect you may be talking about Hemangiosarcoma? It’s a silent killer cancer. I have lost a couple dogs to it ( and others to the various other cancers)
Your girl was lovely! Eventually thoughts turn from tears to gentle sweet memories.
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Posted by dogkisses on March 31, 2015 at 11:24 PM
Bemused, yes, that’s what Ruthie had. I haven’t been able to wrap my mind around the word. The doctor we saw in emergency was good, but German, and I couldn’t understand his words well. I knew though. I knew what his words meant. Thank you for sharing that with me and also, I look forward to my tears turning to the good memories. We had plenty of great times to recall.
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Posted by Maria F. on March 31, 2015 at 10:44 PM
My heart goes out to you. They are like children.
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Posted by dogkisses on March 31, 2015 at 11:22 PM
Thank you Maria. I appreciate your sympathy. Ruthie was my sweet little girl. I knew she would have to leave, as dogs do, earlier than us humans, but my heart sure hurts. I love her forever.
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Posted by marina kanavaki on March 31, 2015 at 5:55 PM
It is hard losing a friend.
I’m sure she’s in a happy place now…
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Posted by dogkisses on March 31, 2015 at 11:20 PM
Yes, Marina, it sure is. Both my son and I are still in a bit of shock. We lost our girl rather suddenly, but I’m glad she was here with me and she told me when it was time to go to the hospital.
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Posted by One among Many on March 31, 2015 at 2:08 PM
Always sad when our four legged friends/your babies are gone. I can tell of all the names Of every pet i’ve ever had.
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Posted by dogkisses on March 31, 2015 at 11:18 PM
Oh, me too! I never forget my four-legged friends. They have each been so special. I had a black lab that could nearly speak English, a grand boy dog who could communicate telepathically with me from long distances when he or his master were in trouble, and then my sweet Ruthie Mae, my tender heart.
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Posted by One among Many on March 31, 2015 at 11:39 PM
Know what you mean, Had sheba that knew when I would get home from school. About a minute before bus got to the house. she was at the door. One would think she knew time day when I made it no big deal. On bus I rode never knew for sure if on time or even 30 minutes late. Mattered not. Minute before bus turned on my street she went to the door.
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Posted by dogkisses on March 31, 2015 at 11:59 PM
She did know! 🙂 I’ve read studies that say dogs appear to know when their owner is coming home about half an hour before you arrive, and for sure, they can sense the closer we get to home.
I don’t much like a home without a dog. But for now, it is only Ruthie that my heart is thinking of. I whispered to her during our last few minutes together, that if she could help me out from heaven by sending another dog friend my way, then that would be good.
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Posted by susanheney on March 31, 2015 at 1:10 PM
Sincerest sympathies, Michelle, on the loss of your Ruthie.
All the places you have been, adventures, highs and lows….
As winter was long and difficult for many; to feel she is at peace,
beyond pain, may be of comfort, and so, too, your memories to cherish.
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Posted by dogkisses on March 31, 2015 at 11:16 PM
Thank you Susan. Yes, it was a difficult winter. We had lots of time for hugs and when my spine hurt, she was so sweet to me. We needed each other so very much, but I do take comfort knowing that she does not have to suffer and I believe, had a good life.
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Posted by River Rat on March 31, 2015 at 12:17 PM
So sorry to hear this sad news. A gentle soul, I can tell. Her spirit will live on through the spirit of this blog, her namesake.
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Posted by dogkisses on March 31, 2015 at 11:14 PM
Yes, Ruthie was a gentle soul. Thank you for your sympathy and also, for reminding me that my “dogkisses” blog is one way that her spirit will live on.
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Posted by Graham With Hats on March 31, 2015 at 12:16 PM
Sincere condolences. For ones who cannot speak, they still express volumes. 🙂
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Posted by dogkisses on March 31, 2015 at 11:09 PM
Such a true and moving statement.
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Posted by brianmcgui on March 31, 2015 at 10:50 AM
Lots of love from me xxx
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Posted by dogkisses on March 31, 2015 at 11:02 PM
Thank you Brian. Always appreciated!
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